真是傻。。。身边的朋友不断劝告。。。
还继续将自己双眼蒙起来。。现在跌的遍体鳞伤。。
没人会可怜。。
2010年10月19日星期二
2009年11月7日星期六
龙应台。。。。
7.11.2009。。。。
今天是龙应台在星洲日报总社新书介绍会。。。《大江大海1949》。。
特别兴奋。。。
再加上买了新的laptop。。。
因为没有订到位。。。所以必须先到视厅室。。等候。。。。
如果有人迟到。。就可以去现场了。。。
结果。。。。。
虽然已经满座。。。
他们还是让一些人到现场。。。
大伙。。。大大小小。。。
冲着去现场。。。
龙卷风。。。好可怕。。。。
现场。。挤得水泄不通。。。上百人。。。宁愿站着,也不愿到视厅室。。。
但主持人说。龙老师不愿看到大家站着听。。。
希望大家可以。。找一个位坐下。。。。
然后。。。龙老师出来了!!!!
全场。。。鼓掌。。。
龙老师竟然叫大家坐到来台上。。。
好机会!!!我们立刻冲到台上。。。
结果我们就成为最接近龙老师的观众了。。。哈哈!!!!
去了那么多次讲座。。。这还是第一次。。。
好精彩的一场讲座。。。
当说到流亡学生时,好多人流泪了。。。
哈哈。。。其实我也有啦。。。
之前看书时已经很感动了。。。
Q&A时,一如往常。。。
都是一些奇怪的问题。。。
居然连。。中国与台湾几时统一的问题都来了。。。
真是哭笑不得。。。。
超近的距离。。。
之后。。。签书会开始了。。。
龙老师说。。大家可以将自己的名字写给她。。。
她都会一一写在书里。。。现场那么多观众。。。。
真是非一般的作家。。。
我的junior。。。
到我时,他们叫我望过来拍照。。。
但龙老师在和我说话。。一定要望着她。。
好开心及满足的一天。。。
今天是龙应台在星洲日报总社新书介绍会。。。《大江大海1949》。。
特别兴奋。。。
再加上买了新的laptop。。。
因为没有订到位。。。所以必须先到视厅室。。等候。。。。
如果有人迟到。。就可以去现场了。。。
结果。。。。。
虽然已经满座。。。
他们还是让一些人到现场。。。
大伙。。。大大小小。。。
冲着去现场。。。
龙卷风。。。好可怕。。。。
现场。。挤得水泄不通。。。上百人。。。宁愿站着,也不愿到视厅室。。。
但主持人说。龙老师不愿看到大家站着听。。。
希望大家可以。。找一个位坐下。。。。
然后。。。龙老师出来了!!!!
全场。。。鼓掌。。。
龙老师竟然叫大家坐到来台上。。。
好机会!!!我们立刻冲到台上。。。
结果我们就成为最接近龙老师的观众了。。。哈哈!!!!
去了那么多次讲座。。。这还是第一次。。。
好精彩的一场讲座。。。
当说到流亡学生时,好多人流泪了。。。
哈哈。。。其实我也有啦。。。
之前看书时已经很感动了。。。
Q&A时,一如往常。。。
都是一些奇怪的问题。。。
居然连。。中国与台湾几时统一的问题都来了。。。
真是哭笑不得。。。。
超近的距离。。。
之后。。。签书会开始了。。。
龙老师说。。大家可以将自己的名字写给她。。。
她都会一一写在书里。。。现场那么多观众。。。。
真是非一般的作家。。。
我的junior。。。
到我时,他们叫我望过来拍照。。。
但龙老师在和我说话。。一定要望着她。。
好开心及满足的一天。。。
2009年10月11日星期日
Life...
Long time din update my blog...
So many things been changed...
graduated...
start working...
just over my probation...
Everything changed...
I need to take more time to adapt in this new environment ...
Beginning...
I knew clearly what I want (at least i thought)...
As working life goes on...
I started to forget...
Forget...What I want?
What i really want? Really need...(after considering those social factors)
I started to question myself...
what i want is really practical?
To work hard in my current field as my career goal is what i actually need?
I started to get tired...
I want reading (no time)
I want friends (no time)
I want family (things doesnt work what i hope)
I hope to get a space...
to think...
what i want...
So many things been changed...
graduated...
start working...
just over my probation...
Everything changed...
I need to take more time to adapt in this new environment ...
Beginning...
I knew clearly what I want (at least i thought)...
As working life goes on...
I started to forget...
Forget...What I want?
What i really want? Really need...(after considering those social factors)
I started to question myself...
what i want is really practical?
To work hard in my current field as my career goal is what i actually need?
I started to get tired...
I want reading (no time)
I want friends (no time)
I want family (things doesnt work what i hope)
I hope to get a space...
to think...
what i want...
2009年6月9日星期二
pls considerate.....
now time is so so important to me...
30 minutes can do so many things..
pls dun waste my time...
i need rest...
this is a long war...
i need physical to support my spirit...
pls......
30 minutes can do so many things..
pls dun waste my time...
i need rest...
this is a long war...
i need physical to support my spirit...
pls......
2009年4月25日星期六
Visits to Taman Sinar Harapn KKB 19/4/09
This is the second time i went there..
I miss jing bao a lot...
I miss Jeromy a lot..
I miss Adam a lot...
As usual, before i go there,early the morning,
i give some time for myself to setup my mind..
i asked myself,why i go there?
what is the attitude i must have...
I told my self...
I cant have the feeling of pity...
they don't need our pity...
they need our care...
they don't need our things..
they only need our care..
Because i need to arrive Maxis Tower before 8.15am..
So i need to go out 6.30am cos i worry of traffic jam...
As usual, ill bring along my book so that i read it in the bus and LRT..
The book name called 《以人类的名义:向日本控诉》.
Is a very good book I have ever read..(ill share it when i free)
里面说了慰安妇的经历,日本军的残忍还有中国人的自私。。
just read a few pages,i stopped..
开始思考。。。
以现在的世界相比,我居然找不到人类在控制自己的能力有所改善。。。
思考。。思考。。再思考。。。
Today not really jam..(maybe is Sunday).
I arrived Maxis Tower very early...
Since i have time, i go KLCC park to have a walk...
Very nice scenery..
很舒服的感觉。。。
then i find a place and sit down..
continue my thinking...
人为什么要称自己为万物之灵??
不是因为我们有理智的能力吗?
不是因为我们有情感吗?
那为什么还会有这些事呢?
无论是以前或是现在。。。
很多人都很喜欢说,
这个世界就是这样--弱肉强食。。
那和野兽的差别是什么??
难道就只是比较文明的“弱肉强食”?
This visit actually organized by Tanjong PLC- Public Affairs Dept
And we are representing Tanjong Scholars...
Maxis Tower....
一个充满回忆的地方。。
有时间证明哦。。哈哈。。
这里。。。是我们(Tanjong Scholars)的家。。。
每次经过这里,都有]一种回到自己家的感觉。。
感谢Tanjong PLC。。
给了我那么多的经历与知识。。。
给了我一班好朋友。。好同事。。。
I think this maybe the last time i represent Scholars for joining community project..
KKB....my first and my last community project in Tanjong..
8.15am...I went back Maxis Tower to join them...
Sadly, eiki and si lei having some urgent things...cant join us..
So, only me, kok wai, huai ling and chun ta going...
It takes around 1.5hours to go there...
So, Madam Ranjit having the briefing in the bus...
Her briefing sounds scary...But its not the first time i hear this.
she said this is the worst place u ever visit b4...
U may vomit..U cant eat ur lunch..U even cant sleep at night...
Because previously some of them had it...
Actually i agreed with what she said..
last time i went there..i cant eat my KFC at all after feeding them..
We arrived there around 10am...
once arrived, i saw the Beyond guy and "hoho" guy standing outside welcoming us..
Miss them a lot...
then they start taking food from us...haha
I really excited that time...
Cos i can see jing bao...after 3 years...Hopefully...
That time,he was 1 year-old..
他的头有水肿。。影响到他的视线及听觉。。
他的骨。。特别弱。。需要用绳子绑住。。就是说他全身手脚都被绳子绑住。。
但是他的脑很清醒。。
那个时候,无论我们怎么逗他,他都不会笑。。
我想哭。。。但。。。
我不能在他面前哭。。一定要忍。。
反而要在他面前让他看到你的笑容。。。
then we go to hall..
the person incharged have a briefing to us...
"this place is a hopeless place"
"all hopeless ppls with worst situation all over Msia will sent to here"...
starting he was ok...
after he said a few words..
he started to become emotional..
nearly cry..y we can leave them here...our children..our parents..
then we started our cleaning work..
the places were better compared with last time...
But still worst..haha...
we spent around 2hours to clean there...
tired...
then we saw Jeromy...
So happy..long time i din see him..
he was fine there...
we have a long chat with him...
he quite independent...
he can use his month and foot to draw pictures...
sell it..he can earn more than RM2000 per month..
he has his own hp,wheel chair and laptop..(all his own money)
then he show us his painting..really nice....
me,Jeromy and Kok Wai..
after that i quickly go to the children room...
I wan to see jing bao...
i went his place..not there...
i asked...they duno...they said only 2possibilities...died or adopted by ppls...
i really down that time...feel sad...but i only can hope he has been adopted by ppl..
then we try to find Adam...
Adam, 一个被抛弃的婴儿。。在垃圾桶旁被找到。。
一只手没有了手掌。。不知道是华,巫还是印的。。
we found a child called Adam also...
But not him...
then we saw a child..
lying on bed...
they told me...he actually a normal baby...
but his mom...having emotional problem...
she throw him to the wall...
after operation and surgery...
1/4 of his head gone...(cut out)
his leg and hand also cannot move at all...
and so many cases...................................
after that lunch....with jeromy...
this time we ate a lot...haha...
then we leave there...
i think this is a sad time to them....
ill try to come back..KKB...or ill go Hari Muhibah....
then we go temple...
all of us need to use skarf or towel to cover ur hair...show the respect...
like the pirates..haha....
then we have the debriefing....
the firstcomers said.....
the worst smell in my life...
my first worst place i ever go b4..
what is in my mind that time...
i really dun hope i will listen ppls said:
Im feel so lucky.....thats all...
what we can do for them....even a small small thing...
such a good experience that day..
I will rmbr...
Jeromy..Jing bao..Adam...
I will miss you all...
Hope that Siew Huey trip to KKB can on...
But sad thing is .....
some of them will move to Johor....
I wish you all will have a great life there...
I miss jing bao a lot...
I miss Jeromy a lot..
I miss Adam a lot...
As usual, before i go there,early the morning,
i give some time for myself to setup my mind..
i asked myself,why i go there?
what is the attitude i must have...
I told my self...
I cant have the feeling of pity...
they don't need our pity...
they need our care...
they don't need our things..
they only need our care..
Because i need to arrive Maxis Tower before 8.15am..
So i need to go out 6.30am cos i worry of traffic jam...
As usual, ill bring along my book so that i read it in the bus and LRT..
The book name called 《以人类的名义:向日本控诉》.
Is a very good book I have ever read..(ill share it when i free)
里面说了慰安妇的经历,日本军的残忍还有中国人的自私。。
just read a few pages,i stopped..
开始思考。。。
以现在的世界相比,我居然找不到人类在控制自己的能力有所改善。。。
思考。。思考。。再思考。。。
Today not really jam..(maybe is Sunday).
I arrived Maxis Tower very early...
Since i have time, i go KLCC park to have a walk...
Very nice scenery..
很舒服的感觉。。。
then i find a place and sit down..
continue my thinking...
人为什么要称自己为万物之灵??
不是因为我们有理智的能力吗?
不是因为我们有情感吗?
那为什么还会有这些事呢?
无论是以前或是现在。。。
很多人都很喜欢说,
这个世界就是这样--弱肉强食。。
那和野兽的差别是什么??
难道就只是比较文明的“弱肉强食”?
This visit actually organized by Tanjong PLC- Public Affairs Dept
And we are representing Tanjong Scholars...
Maxis Tower....
一个充满回忆的地方。。
有时间证明哦。。哈哈。。
这里。。。是我们(Tanjong Scholars)的家。。。
每次经过这里,都有]一种回到自己家的感觉。。
感谢Tanjong PLC。。
给了我那么多的经历与知识。。。
给了我一班好朋友。。好同事。。。
I think this maybe the last time i represent Scholars for joining community project..
KKB....my first and my last community project in Tanjong..
8.15am...I went back Maxis Tower to join them...
Sadly, eiki and si lei having some urgent things...cant join us..
So, only me, kok wai, huai ling and chun ta going...
It takes around 1.5hours to go there...
So, Madam Ranjit having the briefing in the bus...
Her briefing sounds scary...But its not the first time i hear this.
she said this is the worst place u ever visit b4...
U may vomit..U cant eat ur lunch..U even cant sleep at night...
Because previously some of them had it...
Actually i agreed with what she said..
last time i went there..i cant eat my KFC at all after feeding them..
We arrived there around 10am...
once arrived, i saw the Beyond guy and "hoho" guy standing outside welcoming us..
Miss them a lot...
then they start taking food from us...haha
I really excited that time...
Cos i can see jing bao...after 3 years...Hopefully...
That time,he was 1 year-old..
他的头有水肿。。影响到他的视线及听觉。。
他的骨。。特别弱。。需要用绳子绑住。。就是说他全身手脚都被绳子绑住。。
但是他的脑很清醒。。
那个时候,无论我们怎么逗他,他都不会笑。。
我想哭。。。但。。。
我不能在他面前哭。。一定要忍。。
反而要在他面前让他看到你的笑容。。。
then we go to hall..
the person incharged have a briefing to us...
"this place is a hopeless place"
"all hopeless ppls with worst situation all over Msia will sent to here"...
starting he was ok...
after he said a few words..
he started to become emotional..
nearly cry..y we can leave them here...our children..our parents..
then we started our cleaning work..
the places were better compared with last time...
But still worst..haha...
we spent around 2hours to clean there...
tired...
then we saw Jeromy...
So happy..long time i din see him..
he was fine there...
we have a long chat with him...
he quite independent...
he can use his month and foot to draw pictures...
sell it..he can earn more than RM2000 per month..
he has his own hp,wheel chair and laptop..(all his own money)
then he show us his painting..really nice....
me,Jeromy and Kok Wai..
after that i quickly go to the children room...
I wan to see jing bao...
i went his place..not there...
i asked...they duno...they said only 2possibilities...died or adopted by ppls...
i really down that time...feel sad...but i only can hope he has been adopted by ppl..
then we try to find Adam...
Adam, 一个被抛弃的婴儿。。在垃圾桶旁被找到。。
一只手没有了手掌。。不知道是华,巫还是印的。。
we found a child called Adam also...
But not him...
then we saw a child..
lying on bed...
they told me...he actually a normal baby...
but his mom...having emotional problem...
she throw him to the wall...
after operation and surgery...
1/4 of his head gone...(cut out)
his leg and hand also cannot move at all...
and so many cases...................................
after that lunch....with jeromy...
this time we ate a lot...haha...
then we leave there...
i think this is a sad time to them....
ill try to come back..KKB...or ill go Hari Muhibah....
then we go temple...
all of us need to use skarf or towel to cover ur hair...show the respect...
like the pirates..haha....
then we have the debriefing....
the firstcomers said.....
the worst smell in my life...
my first worst place i ever go b4..
what is in my mind that time...
i really dun hope i will listen ppls said:
Im feel so lucky.....thats all...
what we can do for them....even a small small thing...
such a good experience that day..
I will rmbr...
Jeromy..Jing bao..Adam...
I will miss you all...
Hope that Siew Huey trip to KKB can on...
But sad thing is .....
some of them will move to Johor....
I wish you all will have a great life there...
2009年3月26日星期四
A comment sent from my best fren-Hanyang-upm
Yo bro...
i dont have account of blogspot.. so i sent my comment through email... i started my practical training at school already, i am a teacher now, haha...相信我,现在的老师真不好当
My comment for your blog post :
"痛。。。"
你已经付出很多了..尽了我们的本分就可以了,新的成员将替代我们在最前线付出,我们是时候换个环境继续我们的贡献了吧?
所以还是那句:工作多忙都好,记得抽空为自己认定的价值作点努力哦.哪怕是一个星期一小时写一点评论也好(像这部落格),你小小的付出可能足以影响别人一生!
放下包袱吧,退一步海阔天空.放下,不表示你离开它..
想念全升思想交流营工委。。。
"当然还有升学里最好的朋友:汉扬,在巴士里给我的意见,还有全思后你在看dvd的样子(哈哈,你知道啦!)"
对,哈哈,那时太累了,所以才看一下我就睡去了.不过我想最让我记得的是在Taman U的翻版DVD 店我们看到的色情片吧?haha... “小野猫咪咪“ - 嘻嘻
很荣幸地我可以有机会跟你共事,一起办全思。你是那么特别的一个朋友,谦虚,脑筋不停再转,不可多得的一个人才。所以我才一直捉着你讲做义工社会服务的事,因为这些吃力不讨好的Field真的需要像你这样有心又有能力的人!! 真的希望服务社会会是你的人生目标之一 当然这是你的选择,没有说“服务社会“是唯一的选择的,哈哈
因为你,我也对自己的生活不断地在检视与改进。大学里头已经很难让我遇上这样的朋友。。。感恩有你
汉扬
Erm..really happy to receive ur comment...
(1) "痛。。。"
i really like this sentence "我们是时候换个环境继续我们的贡献了吧?".
u trying to change ur contribution in different environment.
cos there are so many area need the contribution from all of us.
cos now there are at least still have ppls in doing it.
it jus they need some times to realise the problems on that.
what we can do is just believe them..believe they can do it..
I really hope that.
"你小小的付出可能足以影响别人一生!'
this is what my thought now...
cos i really believe if u want change, there are so many ways in doing it.
Soft?hard?
Actually trying my best to maintain my both role as masheng n IVEC advisors only..
I hope i can do it well:)
(2) Ur words will always made me think alot...
"你是那么特别的一个朋友,谦虚,脑筋不停再转,不可多得的一个人才。"
this sentence i sent bk to u;)hihi
“服务社会“is so subjective..will depends on how u define it and scope it..
i believe u and me oso have the way on doing it liao...hihi
yup...so happy to have such a good friend in my university life..
PM: i hope u dun mind i post ur email to my blog...(i guess so)hehe
i dont have account of blogspot.. so i sent my comment through email... i started my practical training at school already, i am a teacher now, haha...相信我,现在的老师真不好当
My comment for your blog post :
"痛。。。"
你已经付出很多了..尽了我们的本分就可以了,新的成员将替代我们在最前线付出,我们是时候换个环境继续我们的贡献了吧?
所以还是那句:工作多忙都好,记得抽空为自己认定的价值作点努力哦.哪怕是一个星期一小时写一点评论也好(像这部落格),你小小的付出可能足以影响别人一生!
放下包袱吧,退一步海阔天空.放下,不表示你离开它..
想念全升思想交流营工委。。。
"当然还有升学里最好的朋友:汉扬,在巴士里给我的意见,还有全思后你在看dvd的样子(哈哈,你知道啦!)"
对,哈哈,那时太累了,所以才看一下我就睡去了.不过我想最让我记得的是在Taman U的翻版DVD 店我们看到的色情片吧?haha... “小野猫咪咪“ - 嘻嘻
很荣幸地我可以有机会跟你共事,一起办全思。你是那么特别的一个朋友,谦虚,脑筋不停再转,不可多得的一个人才。所以我才一直捉着你讲做义工社会服务的事,因为这些吃力不讨好的Field真的需要像你这样有心又有能力的人!! 真的希望服务社会会是你的人生目标之一 当然这是你的选择,没有说“服务社会“是唯一的选择的,哈哈
因为你,我也对自己的生活不断地在检视与改进。大学里头已经很难让我遇上这样的朋友。。。感恩有你
汉扬
Erm..really happy to receive ur comment...
(1) "痛。。。"
i really like this sentence "我们是时候换个环境继续我们的贡献了吧?".
u trying to change ur contribution in different environment.
cos there are so many area need the contribution from all of us.
cos now there are at least still have ppls in doing it.
it jus they need some times to realise the problems on that.
what we can do is just believe them..believe they can do it..
I really hope that.
"你小小的付出可能足以影响别人一生!'
this is what my thought now...
cos i really believe if u want change, there are so many ways in doing it.
Soft?hard?
Actually trying my best to maintain my both role as masheng n IVEC advisors only..
I hope i can do it well:)
(2) Ur words will always made me think alot...
"你是那么特别的一个朋友,谦虚,脑筋不停再转,不可多得的一个人才。"
this sentence i sent bk to u;)hihi
“服务社会“is so subjective..will depends on how u define it and scope it..
i believe u and me oso have the way on doing it liao...hihi
yup...so happy to have such a good friend in my university life..
PM: i hope u dun mind i post ur email to my blog...(i guess so)hehe
2009年3月17日星期二
痛。。。
我到底还能够做什么呢??
我知道再也不能用我们的表现来评。但。。。
难道还要一次又一次的将自己的expectation放得那么低吗?
每次回到这个组织,痛的感觉就回来了。。。
一次又一次的失望,我还要给于希望自己吗?
我到底还能够做什么呢??
你们真的觉得这只是一个普通的学生组织吗?
对于社会没有责任吗?
我好想做一些事情,
但却感到自己的无力,无能。。
我知道再也不能用我们的表现来评。但。。。
难道还要一次又一次的将自己的expectation放得那么低吗?
每次回到这个组织,痛的感觉就回来了。。。
一次又一次的失望,我还要给于希望自己吗?
我到底还能够做什么呢??
你们真的觉得这只是一个普通的学生组织吗?
对于社会没有责任吗?
我好想做一些事情,
但却感到自己的无力,无能。。
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